I dealt with anorexia for a long time despite being attracted to the idea of gaining weight. But, two years ago I had finally dealt with my eating disorder enough to finally enjoy gaining some weight both for my health and my kink. Here's some things I learned for anyone coming to this situation after me.
• Stuffing yourself until you're sick just leaves you hating food, not getting fat. Even overeating is best in moderation.
• Flush is a thing that happens when you stuff yourself right before bed and it sucks. Leave time between eating and sleeping for your body to digest before you lay down.
• Gaining 50lbs in a year, but still being a normal weight is weird. You worked very hard for a lot of weight, and you still won't be fat because you were already so underweight to begin with.
• Stretch marks. I never would've thought I'd deal with stretch marks as small as I am, but that's the price of being so underweight for so long. My thighs/butt were covered in stretch marks even at a BMI of 23. Just kinda have to live with it.
• Being in-between straight and plus sizes is annoying, but Torrid carries some straight sizes which makes life in the middle easier. Especially if you're tall like me.
• Gaining weight gets easier. The first 20lbs were the hardest because your body is burning all those calories recovering vital processes in your body that it'd been neglecting during starvation brought on by anorexia. I was eating close to 3000cal a day and not gaining an ounce at the time.
• Gaining weight makes you healthier. I was known for staying sick prior to gaining weight. Now I never get sick. Turns out your body functions a lot better when it has resources to work with.
• Gaining weight on purpose gave me a sense of ownership over my own body that I'd never felt like I had.
Just some thoughts. If you have experienced similar, feel free to share your own.
• Stuffing yourself until you're sick just leaves you hating food, not getting fat. Even overeating is best in moderation.
• Flush is a thing that happens when you stuff yourself right before bed and it sucks. Leave time between eating and sleeping for your body to digest before you lay down.
• Gaining 50lbs in a year, but still being a normal weight is weird. You worked very hard for a lot of weight, and you still won't be fat because you were already so underweight to begin with.
• Stretch marks. I never would've thought I'd deal with stretch marks as small as I am, but that's the price of being so underweight for so long. My thighs/butt were covered in stretch marks even at a BMI of 23. Just kinda have to live with it.
• Being in-between straight and plus sizes is annoying, but Torrid carries some straight sizes which makes life in the middle easier. Especially if you're tall like me.
• Gaining weight gets easier. The first 20lbs were the hardest because your body is burning all those calories recovering vital processes in your body that it'd been neglecting during starvation brought on by anorexia. I was eating close to 3000cal a day and not gaining an ounce at the time.
• Gaining weight makes you healthier. I was known for staying sick prior to gaining weight. Now I never get sick. Turns out your body functions a lot better when it has resources to work with.
• Gaining weight on purpose gave me a sense of ownership over my own body that I'd never felt like I had.
Just some thoughts. If you have experienced similar, feel free to share your own.
4 years